June 13,2021

We are holding on. Today has been another difficult day. Holland's heart rate is staying pretty high, she is still running fever. Still no significant changes. nothing different in her neuro exams. The MRI did not show any positive news, only signs of more damage than we already knew about. She just looks uncomfortable. They changed her breathing tube, the face part anyway. Seeing her face without everything on it was hard. The look of pain on her face was hard to bear. That hopefully will help her for the next few days be a bit more comfortable. She is not under any sedation, but she is still in a semi comatose state. The kids have come to see her, we are still missing Benson and Cassidy, but they are on their way. Sterling played Elvis gospel songs for Holland. We have all taken turns holding her hands. More hard discussions with doctors. We have all shed tears today. She knows we are here, she knows we love her, we know she loves us. We still need more time. It is not easy, but we wait, and we hope.

Interestingly, the week before this happened, I had been studying these words by Ronald A Rasband:

Many of you have witnessed miracles, more than you realize. They may seem small in comparison to Jesus raising the dead. But the magnitude does not distinguish a miracle, only that it came from God.

Miracles are wrought by divine power by Him who is “mighty to save.” Miracles are extensions of God’s eternal plan; miracles are a lifeline from heaven to earth.

Nick and I remain confident in our Savior. I know Holland is confident in Him, too. There are miracles still to come, I am sure. They may or may not be the huge ones we hope for, but they will be the ones we need, and the ones she needs. There are tender mercies all around us from a loving Heavenly Father. We have been fed, visited, loved, remembered, provided for and prayed for throughout this experience. We have felt His hand in our lives thru the service of those around us. May we all be one in Christ.